Saturday, December 31, 2011

36 Weeks!

Ok little man...you have kind of made things awfully difficult the last few weeks! I'll get to that in a minute...

A few days before Christmas.. David found out he got into KU Med! I could not be any happier or any more proud of him! That boy has worked harder then anyone that I know...he graduated with an amazing GPA while working three jobs, two weekly volunteer projects, and did weekly research with one of his previous professors. He is going to make the best doctor! Way to go buddy!!! :)

Christmas came and was absolutely amazing except for the fact I was in so much pain I woke up crying. I had gotten NO sleep Christmas Eve because of pelvic, leg, ankle, and foot pains and Christmas day wasn't any better. I really enjoyed everything else about Christmas though...it was me and your daddy's last kid-free Christmas and he made sure to make it special! He bought me a new iphone and then surprised me with two George Strait tickets - I could not believe it!! I had told Lance he was the one singer I would LOVE to see but i never thought he would get me those tickets!!! It's the end of February so it'll be the first time we leave you alone probably but I think we will enjoy a few hours as husband and wife rather than parents! Lance got permission from my parents first to make sure we would have a babysitter and they said they'd be more then fine with watching the little fella! Everything else about Christmas was great too...I got a lot of random stuff since I didn't want clothes due to being soooo big right now but hopefully not soon! I wouldn't know what size to tell people! I always love family time...of course I missed my Grandpa - it always seems like something is missing but compared to last Christmas, this one was 100% better!

We had our second child birthing class Wednesday - it was Lance's idea to go to the classes because he wanted to be as educated as possible about what was going to happen and what he could do to make it easier. It has been really good us going...last week we watched "videos...." ummm that definitely caused some anxiety but I'm trying not to think about how you're getting out of there! Haha. Lance has read the pregnancy books and has just been absolutely positively amazing. I can not even rave about that man enough...he is seriously the most perfect husband I could ever ask for. Everyone in my family has told me repeatedly how lucky I am to have such a wonderful support system in him...I thank God everyday we made it through our tough times we had last year because he is everything I want in a man now plus so much more.

Onto you...my crazy little man...lately my swelling and edema have gotten crazy. Christmas weekend I couldn't even pull my Ugg's on or even really my tennis shoes for that matter. The swelling around my ankles was making walking feel almost unbearable...which makes for a super awful day at work! I asked the nurse at my job to take my blood pressure and it was 157/98 which is definitely way too high! I called my doctor and he told me to come in my next available day which was the following afternoon. Lance and I went in after work and I had a trace of protein in my urine and my blood pressure was still just as high...he thinks it is the early stages of preeclampsia. They sent me to labor & delivery to have some tests done to check labs and put you on a fetal monitor to make sure everything was fine...everything was. Sooo it's just the early stages but that means no more work for me. :( I am now on "modified bed rest" which means I have to just take it super easy and I can't really be on my feet for too long because of the swelling and the blood pressure. Soooo little man...you have definitely changed my plans - I was supposed to work up until the day I had you. Most people would love the chance to be off work but I am just worried about my time off and getting paid - I do look forward to finally getting the chance to rest and take a break though. Physically, my body felt like it couldn't take too much more do now I just get to rest and focus on me and you! It's frustrating because I want to enjoy these last few weeks of feeling you kick and move in my belly...but I'm so uncomfortable I'm also ready to not be pregnant and just see you and have you! I am just kind of torn on the situation! Either way...we go back to the doctor on Tuesday and we will talk to him then and see what he thinks about everything. Who knows, we might be meeting you a lot sooner then we had planned!

Tonight is New Years Eve! I am so ready for 2012.... 2011 was a year full of up and down's! It was the first year without my Grandpa which meant a whole bunch of first's...every holiday, every special occasion, they were all the first time without my grandpa. My mom's cancer came back and spread to multiple bones causing her to go through chemo again and lose her hair again...I just hope and pray that 2012 is a great year for her! She needs a break...I hope her hormone therapy is successful! Grandma Jo passed away... Snoball passed away. :( Amongst all the sadness though...Lance and I had an amazing year! In March, we bought our beautiful home, April we celebrated our one year wedding anniversary, May we found out we were pregnant! In September we found out it was going to be a little boy...and here we are! Just days or weeks away from actually having our son! 2012 will begin with the expansion of our family! :)

I'll end with a picture of the big ol' belly and also our nursery!!! Lance worked so hard on it! :) There is definitely more to do but for the most part we are ready for him!!!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

34 Weeks!

We had another doctor's appointment today and everything is still great! My blood pressure is perfect, urine levels are perfect, my weight gain is good (doctor's opinion...not mine. I think I have gained way too much.) We heard your little heartbeat today and it sounds so healthy and you are growing how you are supposed to...I knew that though. I feel how big you are abs how much your little crazy butt moves all over the place! You are head down which is how you are supposed to be...I just hope you stay that way! :)

We had my family baby shower this past Sunday and had such a wonderful time! We all had the best time and played some fun games, had some yummy cake, and opened some super great gifts! There's still plenty that we need for the little guy but we are doing our best to not get stressed out. There is so much left to do! We bought the bedding finally to complete the nursery but the floors are just completely covered in his presents from the past two baby showers. I try and organize little bits at a time but work has been kicking my butt so I do not have much energy left to do much of anything. Lance has been working so hard though...it will get done though. I know I just need to relax! :)

We went and looked at an SUV tonight...it's crazy how our lives are changing. Especially your daddy's...he is in the process of changing jobs so he could financially support our family more and provide the healthcare that's necessary for you. He is also trading in his truck to drive my car so he can put your car seat in the back and I will drive a safer SUV. He is doing anything and everything he can for us as a family and I just wish I could do something to show him how much I appreciate him and everything he does. It is funny to think about who your daddy was when we started dating...he was just coming out of a very unhealthy relationship and was living the bachelor life. His house was bare, he partied and drank as though he didn't have a care in the world, he rode his motorcycle... Three years later he is the perfect man. Not that he was bad before but it is just crazy to see the change in him. He's grown up and has stepped into that husband and daddy role without a blink of an eye. He's amazing and Lathan, I hope you are just like him someday! :)

Saturday, December 10, 2011

My dear sweet baby....

Oh little man...how much we love you already. We love feeling you kick, we love thinking about how close we are to meeting you and finally seeing who you are going to look most like. I think we are both pretty certain you will have dark hair and dark eyes...there is no questioning that! We go and sit in your room and think about how our lives will change in less than seven weeks. It has just been the two of us and now you will be our world! I love Lance so much so I could not be any happier that you will be half of each of us! Your daddy will be the best daddy to you...I just know it. His eyes light up every time he talks about you...he has taken amazing care of me so I know he will of you.

Although we love you and are so thankful for you...my dear sweet son...you are physically a handful these days! :) There's some days the thought of walking down the hall takes a pep talk....I'm not exactly sure why my body hurts to this degree, but I know once we see your handsome little face it will all be worth it! I had to buy a maternity belt because you are killing my back and pelvis...but you are worth every ache and pain. You really are an active little guy! You kick, roll, punch, and really jive in there! I'm hoping you figure out night time though once you get here because boy oh boy, you sure like to rock and roll when your mommy really wants to sleep :)

You really mess with your daddy a lot..sometimes you will completely stop moving when he puts his hand on my belly to feel you. I just crack up! You're already giving him a hard time! :) what a good little boy! LOL.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Showers, Scans, and Sadness....

We had our first baby shower yesterday...my in laws planned it and it actually went really well. I will be honest...I was a nervous wreck given the history with them but everyone was on their best behavior and they threw a beautiful shower. It made me very happy for Lance because they haven't treated him the best and for once...he was in the spot light and our baby was the focus of everyone. I am very happy for him. We got A LOT of stuff!!! I just spent about an hour cutting all the tags off all his new clothes...he is going to have so much by the time he gets here! Who knows where we will put it all... :) Next weekend we have one with my family so I'm super excited for that one! :)

Thursday was the one year of my Grandpa's passing....we survived it. It definitely made me sad and feel all that sadness from the worst day of my life but I know he's always watching me. That doesn't make the pain any easier but I know he's with me all the time.

My mom's scans came back stable! They haven't gotten any better but they haven't gotten any worst...so we will definitely take it! :) I am so thankful God heard all our prayers and gave her some peace of mind for everything coming up...I just wanted her to enjoy my baby showers, David's graduation, the holidays, David's graduation party, and the birth of her first grandson! There's so much excitement over the next few months...I'm so thankful for the scan results! :)